Shoes, corsets, and money woes city trouble

Shoes I’m wanting to start with the cute high heels I’ve found on eBay and the internet. I’ll post pictures later on put they’re high heel Oxford shoes. I love them I’m hoping my boyfriend does too. They match my new corsets.

I’ve discovered wish the shopping app. I’ve made my list and I’m going to get my stuff. I keep adding to my wish app list is the only problem.

As I was at work I discovered a way to make money pop cans to go along with the cat food cans. I’m going to save back some of my money for me.

My city woes I have four vehicles with out tags to move and a large brush pile. I’m pissed I’ll have to hire someone to haul my brush.

I’m still actively growing out my eyebrows the corner I cut too short. It’s almost like I shaved them I’m gaining stubble and using my brow pencil it’s been great. I don’t have any other post.

This week

I got paid Thursday and done my adulthood duties. I bought food and paid bills. I’m broke again but I was able to help my boyfriend. The ninth was his birthday and exactly one year my dad passed away. I made my boyfriend two red velvet cakes with cream cheese icing and 36 sugar cookies. I got him a card,two roses, and three blankets and a gift bag for his card.

I’m thinking about getting my tongue pierced. I haven’t decided yet. On another pondering note my boyfriend cousin told my boyfriend I could cook for him. I told my boyfriend cook for him I’m your girlfriend so when did I become his girlfriend. I thought it was a joke until I got to thinking back he’s spoken to me on a few occasions but nothing serious. I do remember the first time I seen him it was 2016 my dads white mercury car had trouble at the church. I was in the front seat and dads car wouldn’t start we locked eyes. I didn’t feel any chemistry but I wonder if he did.

This week is my long week I’m stuck working the weekend. I hate working weekends. I’m glad to have Valentine’s Day off. I hope the rest of my wish lingerie arrives so I can take pictures and show my boyfriend. On a secret note I bought a few more things on wish. I’m loving that site.

I finally got brave enough to let my boyfriend see my house inside. He loved it he was surprised that my living room was so big. I’m not ready for company I want to put my clutter up and finish decorating two rooms and my clutter will be gone. I’ll be so happy over that.

I found some wood for my boyfriend who heats his house with wood. It’s great how we compliment each each other.

My hair seems to be growing and I got nature’s truth hair, skin, and nail vitamins. I got the last three bottles they had. I’ve used them in the past well a year ago and had great results with them.

Sadly I missed the sale at Menards but they’re supposed to have a sale on my doors, window screens, and porch lights. I found out we get an extra payday in may and maybe I’ll get a tax rebate to add to my money I’ll buy then.

Guilt

I know this is an unusual title for a blog but oh well. I’m going to start off with a confession about something I’ve gotten away with. I had sex with my ex last fall. He’d broken up with his girlfriend and I needed a sexual fixation because it’s been months since I had sex with my boyfriend. Why am I mentioning this I got the same call as before with the same line of crap. I resisted the invitation for casual sex. It’s been 24 hours later and I’m regretting it. My boyfriend doesn’t seem interested in me. Sometimes I wonder if he even really loves me or finds me attractive.

I have a bigger confession. Every since I had sex with my ex I really don’t want to have sex with my boyfriend. My question is could it be that I’m riddled with guilt? I know what I did was wrong on so many levels. If it’s guilt how do you get it to go away or does it ever? Do I have to live with my mistakes for the rest of my life.

On a positive note I did get an amazing Avon eyebrow pencil and I’m still looking for a new personal hair trimmer.

I’m looking forward to my boyfriend birthday the 9th; that I’ll blog about next time. I’m going to get him a nice birthday gift and I already got his valentine day stuff. I’ll confess what I bought him after valentine day.

It’s amazing I get accused of cutting my hair

It’s amazing I get accused of cutting my hair because of my new style. I love my new style and my eyebrows too. Next I’ll be accused of trying to look evil.

Last Saturday I heard from my cousin willy and seen my other cousin Kimber Dawn at dollar general. I seen her in the dollar section I was looking for body wash. We talked and hugged.

My boyfriend lost his cell phone so I was going to help him buy one. He found his phone in his niece driveway unharmed. Now, I’m going to try and find another gift idea for a man. I won’t say what I got him but I think he will like it.

I gave my boyfriend some more steaks the last I had in the deep freezer and some pantry items. I gave him some cash too for extras. I’m still awestruck over him telling me that he told his friend that I take care of him. It makes me feel great.

My boss made us give out and set up emails for some social link. I did go along with this after I got over being pissed due to it being an invasion of privacy. I put as my second jobs my boyfriend is my boss and I’m his submissive girlfriend. He’s my daddy and I’m loving.

On a side note I did buy some cute items for myself lingerie and my next order is my bedroom shelf. I did find my home repair items I liked and made my order list I still have a lot leftover from last year.

A year in review

I’ve healed since my abortion and moved on. I’m with the love of my life. We are helping each other as a team and it’s been great.

My dads been dead for almost a year and time flies. I’ve become appreciative of people help and I’ve learned to like nature. I planted several flower gardens. I’ve redone my house to make it suitable for my liking.

I still haven’t cut my hair but I have neglected it and as a result it’s stopped growing. I am training it for a new hir style. I’ll post pictures of it at a later time. I also have shaved my brows in a 1930’s style and I’m loving them. To be honest so is my boyfriend.

My life changed a lot two weeks ago

My life changed a lot two weeks ago. I found my father dead in the back yard of my house. That was February 9: speak of the devil my ex came by February 14 to nose. March 3 I meet with my lawyer to see if I keep the house.

I went back to work last week. It was a good week. I missed my cats and the people at work. I'm still trying to work out a routine and budget for the extra bills I have. I know I can do it.

My crush is back in prison

My crush is back in prison he went back January 31st; Thursday I mailed him three cards. I love him a lot I hate that he's locked up. I did get my free phone call and I added five dollars for him to call me. I love him so much.

I'm still loving my panda washer and I did get some cute things Tuesday at the lord store.

Friday at the grocery store I was at the butter case and I seen a girl with a shopping cart looking at me. I turn to look it's my ex boyfriend current girlfriend. She hurried got her milk ran up the pop aisle. I checked out and seen a car in the parking lot like the one in front of his house last summer I take a picture of the license plate number. I thought as strange as she's acting it wouldn't hurt.

I did get a compliment on my long hair and nails. I bought some nature truth hair skin and nails vitamins. I'll let you know how they work out.