The weather, helping my man, and payday

We thought spring was here until this week and we are back to cold weather and snow skiffs. I hate the cold weather let alone the snow. I done all my normal stuff for the week. I made out a store note, done my eyebrows at the same time I’m letting the inside corner grow out, and I’m still transitioning into my new hair style. I’m still loving my eyebrows and my eyebrow pencil it’s almost permanent which is great I don’t have to redo my brows.

My boyfriend text me he needs clothes his are falling apart and I’ll see what I can do to help him, and I’m going to try to find him jeans,shirts, and everything else. I try to take care of him he’s my boyfriend my everything.

I did get some free food from the food pantry blessing box. I’m going to cook a fancy dish for my boyfriend. I’m fixing fudge brownies, cinnamon apple sauce, and corn bread and red bean soup. I’m hoping he likes them. I’m not sure when I’m going to do this except for on my day off.

I had a lady ask me if Jessica Rabbit was my role model. Not exactly I do like the 1930’s to 1950’s hair styles and eyebrows. I’ve wanted to do this for years. I also want to try waist training with an under bust corset. I’m going to discuss this with my boyfriend. I’m going to save up for my high heels.

Shoes, corsets, and money woes city trouble

Shoes I’m wanting to start with the cute high heels I’ve found on eBay and the internet. I’ll post pictures later on put they’re high heel Oxford shoes. I love them I’m hoping my boyfriend does too. They match my new corsets.

I’ve discovered wish the shopping app. I’ve made my list and I’m going to get my stuff. I keep adding to my wish app list is the only problem.

As I was at work I discovered a way to make money pop cans to go along with the cat food cans. I’m going to save back some of my money for me.

My city woes I have four vehicles with out tags to move and a large brush pile. I’m pissed I’ll have to hire someone to haul my brush.

I’m still actively growing out my eyebrows the corner I cut too short. It’s almost like I shaved them I’m gaining stubble and using my brow pencil it’s been great. I don’t have any other post.

This week

I got paid Thursday and done my adulthood duties. I bought food and paid bills. I’m broke again but I was able to help my boyfriend. The ninth was his birthday and exactly one year my dad passed away. I made my boyfriend two red velvet cakes with cream cheese icing and 36 sugar cookies. I got him a card,two roses, and three blankets and a gift bag for his card.

I’m thinking about getting my tongue pierced. I haven’t decided yet. On another pondering note my boyfriend cousin told my boyfriend I could cook for him. I told my boyfriend cook for him I’m your girlfriend so when did I become his girlfriend. I thought it was a joke until I got to thinking back he’s spoken to me on a few occasions but nothing serious. I do remember the first time I seen him it was 2016 my dads white mercury car had trouble at the church. I was in the front seat and dads car wouldn’t start we locked eyes. I didn’t feel any chemistry but I wonder if he did.

This week is my long week I’m stuck working the weekend. I hate working weekends. I’m glad to have Valentine’s Day off. I hope the rest of my wish lingerie arrives so I can take pictures and show my boyfriend. On a secret note I bought a few more things on wish. I’m loving that site.

I finally got brave enough to let my boyfriend see my house inside. He loved it he was surprised that my living room was so big. I’m not ready for company I want to put my clutter up and finish decorating two rooms and my clutter will be gone. I’ll be so happy over that.

I found some wood for my boyfriend who heats his house with wood. It’s great how we compliment each each other.

My hair seems to be growing and I got nature’s truth hair, skin, and nail vitamins. I got the last three bottles they had. I’ve used them in the past well a year ago and had great results with them.

Sadly I missed the sale at Menards but they’re supposed to have a sale on my doors, window screens, and porch lights. I found out we get an extra payday in may and maybe I’ll get a tax rebate to add to my money I’ll buy then.

Guilt

I know this is an unusual title for a blog but oh well. I’m going to start off with a confession about something I’ve gotten away with. I had sex with my ex last fall. He’d broken up with his girlfriend and I needed a sexual fixation because it’s been months since I had sex with my boyfriend. Why am I mentioning this I got the same call as before with the same line of crap. I resisted the invitation for casual sex. It’s been 24 hours later and I’m regretting it. My boyfriend doesn’t seem interested in me. Sometimes I wonder if he even really loves me or finds me attractive.

I have a bigger confession. Every since I had sex with my ex I really don’t want to have sex with my boyfriend. My question is could it be that I’m riddled with guilt? I know what I did was wrong on so many levels. If it’s guilt how do you get it to go away or does it ever? Do I have to live with my mistakes for the rest of my life.

On a positive note I did get an amazing Avon eyebrow pencil and I’m still looking for a new personal hair trimmer.

I’m looking forward to my boyfriend birthday the 9th; that I’ll blog about next time. I’m going to get him a nice birthday gift and I already got his valentine day stuff. I’ll confess what I bought him after valentine day.