Skipped week and this week

Skipped week nothing really happened. My crush is still in jail his court date was postponed until January 4th: while in jail this week he had a mini stroke. My poor baby I feel sad for him. I try to help him all I can.

My Christmas gifts didn't arrive. My body jewelry from overseas and heart Brazilian wax kit. I'll have to be patient and wait.

Friday I seen my ex as I was walking home from the post office. He went by in his red pickup and he turned around faced me head on. He did a casual wave and I flipped him the bird. I hate him.

My mom came by and seen me Christmas Eve. She got my a necklace set with matching earrings and a bracelet. I also got my clear bead string. I fixed my broken favorite bracelet. I'm happy with my Christmas. I'm waiting on my crush to call so I can tell him about my ham my mom brought. My crush loves my cooking.

Cooking with love

Tuesday my crush got locked up in jail for not being able to do his drug treatment. He got into an argument with his parole officer because the city bus doesn't run on Sunday. He goes to court on the 19th: he did make my day when I told him I was having chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast and said he wanted to marry me when he gets out so he can have my cooking for all time. He also loved my leftovers. When he gets out I have a dinner planned for him.

I'm saving up my money for things I want. I have all my Christmas shopping done just waiting on my stuff to arrive.

I haven't seen my ex and thank god for that. Although his brother wife sisters old man works as a sacker at the local grocery store.

Week of the dull

This week has been dull. I had my work place meeting it was half hour lecture about work place advents. We did get our Christmas bonuses which was good.

I cooked for my crush and delivered it to him. I also finished my shopping for him and myself. I'm put up a Christmas stocking and tree. I even got a stocking for my crush.

I haven't seen my ex around and I'm glad for that. I don't want him in my life.

My hair is doing better since I trimmed it and I think it's growing again it's not as hard to wash due to tangling. I'm still using my hair growth treatment.

All about my crush

Monday of last week I gave my crush pumpkin bread and a thanksgiving card. He ate the pumpkin bread and loved the card. He finally got a cellphone and I'm glad I can hear from him.

I did most of my Christmas shopping online. I also trimmed my hair and it's to the top of my hips. I showed my crush photos of it. I was sad but my ends became really thin.

Sunday I seen my crush I went to his house we watched part of a porno movie This ain't the munsters. Then I gave him head for a while in his bed and we had sex doggy style. He ended up ejaculating on my bottom. I wore my gray sweat pants with hot pink love, hot pink top, and matching gray pink love zipped hoodie. I wore my body fantasy body spray paradise fantasy. I gave my crush $5.00's for food,medicine and cigarettes. No one should go hungry or with out medicine.

I also got him some Christmas gifts. I'm going to make three different homemade breads for my crush. I even hung up my Christmas stalking and I got my crush a Christmas card.

I found my pink winter items. I even changed my cellphone case it's light pink with clear jewels it fits like a dream. It was gave to me a year ago by a friend of mine. I'm happy that my phone case is great.

Took a week off, pumpkin bread, lady balls and body jewelry

I took a week off last week I was under the weather. I had a gland in my throat that was infected.

I made pumpkin bread in my bread maker a loaf for me and a smaller one for my crush. I see him out and about last Thursday he waved at me. I was heading home from the lord store free clothes store.

I gave him his candy I've been carrying around for a while and card. I grew lady balls and it felt great.

My dog of 15 years died last week and I'm sad over that.

I've made my Christmas shopping list and I'm getting more body jewelry. It's become my new favorite thing.

Time for changing

It's a new season in my life. I changed my helix and nose ring this week. The change felt good since I haven't changed my piercings since 09 or 10: I'm thinking about getting a tattoo of my crush initials on my middle finger. Speaking of crush I seen him from afar. He waved at me and I waved back. I've become more bolder and putting his photo on my Facebook page.

I blocked my ex phone number and I'm moving on. It's time for me to move on. I bought new clothes, made my Christmas shopping list and I'm happy. For once I feel pretty.

I grew lady balls gave my crush his card and hot lips candy. I know everyone likes a sweet treat. I'm proud of myself for gaining courage.

Halloween week

Monday I got my pretty pink taser. I do feel safe having it. I'm happy for that. I'm very grateful that my ex hasn't bugged me. Although my ex seen me Saturday when I was all dressed up in my new outfit and high heeled boots.  I'm sad I haven't seen my crush.

Tuesday I got my body jewelry from overseas. I'm amazed by the time it arrived. I wasn't expecting it to arrive until this week. I love the tiny sized nose rings.

Wednesday I got my nose ring from New York and it was great my spider. I'm wearing it this weekend.

Nothing really happened Thursday but Friday I got my letter from my ex that's in the federal prison. I look forward to my letters.

Saturday I went to the church yard sale. I was also spying on my crush I never seen  him. I'm sad by that thought.

Monday I worked Halloween and we had several trick or treaters and no candy. It was the dullest Halloween ever. I'm hoping my ex doesn't ruin it so far he hasn't. I just hope he doesn't ruin my birthday either.

Parade, cookie cutters, and trying to move on

I seen my ex Thursday with his girlfriend and I flipped off the car. I don't think he saw me but I don't care. It felt good flipping him off. I seen them as I was heading to the post office.

Saturday I went to the south side parade. I sat with my grade school friend grandma. I had a good time and I got coupons to Pizza Hut and bought myself a personal pan pizza and cinnamon sticks.

I haven't seen my ex after that one time and I'm glad. I'm trying to move on and I want to be with my crush. I haven't seen him in a while.

I did get more clothes and I'm wearing makeup have since last week. I'm still using my growth treatment.

I ordered my birthday gifts. Body jewelry, love pink Victoria's Secret lanyard, and taser and spider nose ring. I cleaned off my key ring. I made my Christmas wish list. I'm back to saving money.  I'm still working on a few things for my Christmas list.

I'm still walking for two hours and collecting things for my home. I want to better myself.

The drama pot stirred up good

As the title says the drama pot is stirred up good and proper. My ex called me out of the blue. He was telling me his 35 year old girlfriend won't have sex with him. He wanted me to cheat on her. I'm not doing it. I told him he needs to be with her or let her go.

I still haven't heard or seen my crush. I do love him and want to be with him. Even if I was to date another I'd never love them more then I do my crush.

Work is the same drama and I'm used to it. I don't pay attention to the drama there anymore.

A week of praise

A week of praise I had a good thing gave to me a bread maker and I'm going to make homemade pizza next weekend. I'm going to make a garlic dough with vegetable topping. I've bought my bread maker supplies and pizza toppings.

My hair is on its next week of its treatment. I'm hoping my hair grows to my rear end. Which is classic length. This is my goal for the winter.

My skin has been so dry and flaky. I'm going to start using lotion. I normally don't use lotion my skin is normally oily.

I haven't seen or heard from my crush or ex. I did mail my old fling some pictures and letter Sunday. I got my mail.

I'm going to get a lanyard for my keys and with the killer clowns scare I'm going to carry mace. I've been staying in during the evening time. I feel safe in my house due to the alarm.

The plot thickens

The plot thickens I didn't hear from my ex. I thought I'd hear from him but I never did. I'm sort of glad too.

I did get a letter from my ex that is in federal prison he wants me to wait for him. I'm going to write back and send him pictures. The plot thickens there.

I'm going to figure up my body jewelry order. I also want a jewelry display case. I want a display case for my jewelry I want my jewelry to stay nice. I did find a jewelry display case in the window of a store. It needs work done to it and the bad thing is it belongs to an auctioneer and I know auctions are famous for running prices up.

It's week two of my growth challenge my scalp itches but I did braid it let it hang down my back. When I washed my hair I used Pantene shampoo and conditioner plus the mane n tail conditioner.

Nothing happens

I was sick all weekend. I did get my new tennis shoes. I got them at dollar general I couldn't afford expensive shoes couldn't find any at the free clothes store.

I did go out Sunday and check my mail at the post office. No letter from my old booty call partners. Oh well I'll check next Sunday. On my way home I seen my ex as I was walking home I waved at him. He waved back.

I did try my new hair growth product monistat mixed with mtg. I done this Monday and I went on my walk I got brave enough to go in front of my crush house he was gone to treatment.

Slowdown has happened

I've had a slow dull week. I haven't seen or heard from my crush.

I did pay bills, write my ex from years ago, and my last ex called me asking how I'm doing if I had a boyfriend. I told him about my crush I told him how I don't hear from him unless he's in county lock up. I told him how I got a letter from my ex boyfriend I haven't seen in years. That was Saturday and he called me Sunday to tell me he helped a guy put up a carport.

I did get in touch with a friend I haven't talked to in a year. I'm happy for that.

I have started posting on untamed tresses again. I love that website. I'm going to start wearing my hair up again and taking better care of it.

Tidbits of a mad woman

I seen my crush Saturday he was on his bike I got to talk to him as I was heading to the post office to check my po box. I went my get my mail and on my way home I seen him in a car. He waved at me. When I feel like giving up hope he comes around.

Sunday and twice today I seen my ex. He waved at me today twice I waved back both times.

Today at 10:38am and 12:20pm I seen my crush walk down the street. Also related to him was his cousin neighbor who was checking me out as I was walking home from the store Sunday. Then went down the street in front of my house which he never does. Then later on Sunday I seen him on my walk. The second time that night I was by dollar general and he waved at me. I waved back thinking I made a terrible mistake.

Today I got to thinking about my old walking area. I used to go in front of my ex's house years ago and my crushes. My ex didn't live there then but my crush lived at the same location. Back then I wasn't afraid of that neighborhood but I am now. The thing is nothing really changed there. I wonder why I'm afraid I might have to brave up and go that way again.

My dad brought home my one dump truck. The place I had them parked at is stealing parts off of them. It wore dad out.

I went on untamed tresses where I used to frequent and put my updates. It felt good to be back.

Hair update, church yardsale, and the rest of the weekend

My hair update is I'm at tailbone length. I can't wear it in a high pony tail that it doesn't start to drooping down. I'm happy to made my one goal.

I attended the church yard sale. I didn't buy I'm saving up my money for my birthday gift. I'm buying body jewelry for my piercings I haven't bought any for years.

I haven't seen my crush or heard from him. I thought I saw him getting on the 7:40am bus. I was too far away to tell.

My ex Charlie talked to me Sunday asked me how I was doing. I said fine and was telling me he was working 20 hours a day. I said wow and he went on. He acted like we are friends I don't get it.

I keep seeing yellow butterflies and I'm wondering what that means. I'm going to look it up on the internet.

I got a letter from my booty call partner this Saturday. He's been in federal prison for 3-1/2 years. He gets out in 2-1/2 years. I'm going to write him back.

My crush and his drama

My crush and his drama. Tuesday he got arrested and he called me from the jail house. It was Monday I seen him on his bike. He got put in for using drugs and going to the wrong meeting.

Friday I got a call from a coworker that's a trouble maker. I'm not going into detail about that.

I bought all the new clothes I want donated the rest to dav. I'm happy about giving back. I've donated before and I used to shop there. I love it.

I have to call in about jury duty tonight. I hope I don't get it.

I was looking at body jewelry and seen a butterfly nose ring I'm not sure if I want the blue or pink one. I like the blue one to match my crush eyes and maybe it explains the toddler in my dreams. I told my crush about the toddler in my dreams. He said it was due to pregnancy. I had my period already.

I have been walking a lot more

I've been walking a lot more and I'm almost at my goal weight but not my goal size. My hips, thighs, and butt is bigger. I can only think of one cause and that's my abortion pregnancy causing the changes.

I haven't seen my ex around and I'm glad for that. I'm moving on even though it hurts.

I seen my crush from afar he was on his bike. He waved but I couldn't tell who it was. I can't see that far. I am still carrying his candy in my purse. I want to give it to him in person but his neighborhood scares me. I might have to just get brave and do it.

I found out today my ex asked my coworker about me months ago. This makes sense as to why he has been spying. He's doing it as away to get me to go back to him. I'm not doing it. I never realized how much I changed until I got away from him. He was a tyrant.

On a mature note I seen two people I hate in a public place and ignored them.

I keep seeing my crush

I keep seeing my crush after talking to him on his way to classes Saturday. I gave him two pieces of candy root beer barrels to be exact. I did go out Sunday and bought him some hot lips candy. I'm carrying the bag around with me so I can give it to him.

I seen my crush on Sunday as I was going for a walk and again this morning. I was too far away for him to see me. I'm getting closer to giving him the candy. I think he will like the hint I'm leaving for him.

I haven't seen my ex and I'm not looking for him anymore. I'm moving on and I'm going to work on my wardrobe. I want to look good for my crush.

I seen an unsavory female from my past at the dollar general. I'm glad again I did my shopping with out her noticing me. It's like we were never friends she was friends with my ex. She thinks she can buddy up to me. My crush is friends with her and my ex still I'm not friends with her we have mutual friends. There's a difference.

I heard back from dollar general I filled out the rest of the questions they needed. When I went there Sunday they were swamped it was like a mad house.

I'm feeling pms like symptoms I'm to start tomorrow. I keep having a dream about an unknown toddler boy wearing overalls and white t shirt. He's all alone with me. He's slapping a ball like he's trying to dribble it but the ball isn't rubber it's got soft cloth cover and packing. He slaps it three times the fourth time he falls down sitting playing with it. He's slobbering and I hold out my arms and try to pick him up. This is when my alarm clock went off. Next night I do as before but I ask him what his name is he just smiled won't talk to me.

This week was interesting

This week was interesting. I didn't see my ex going by my work place. I'm glad for that.

I'm getting back into my hair care routine. I'm using my Pantene serum and leave in conditioner. I did use up another hair growth oil gro works it's in a green bottle and I hated it made my hair greasy.

Sunday I did see my ex outside a restaurant as I was walking to the post office. He asked me what the hell I was doing. I looked inside the window thinking they were closed but they weren't. I told him I was going to the post office I was on the way.

I did use my pocket change to get some leggings pants to wear with my new shirts. I also went to interserve the free clothes store and got a pair of black silk pants. I got new tennis shoes. I bought another bracelet, three toe rings with ankle bracelets, and my cover girl powder. I'm still getting rid of my unwanted clothes.

This weekend

This weekend my crush got out of jail Monday and he came by to see me Friday night 8:40pm to be exact. I'm going to his house Saturday morning around 9am. I'm wearing my bright pink thong and bra set. My outerwear is a cream color knit spaghetti strap top and denium shorts. I wore no makeup and Mary Kay thinking of you perfume. He started out giving me the best oral sex ever then we 69 after that we had doggy style sex. The rest of the two hours I gave him a blow job.

I've been working on bling jewelry for my big date with my crush . When it cools down is like to go to the Pizza Royal  then to the Carnegie Library and walk around hold hands. My crush might like it. I'm not embarrassed to be seen in public with my man.

My not so savory coworker worked Friday and Saturday night. I'm hoping it's just fill in. I so do not want her around.

I got my ex license plate number and as always I still see him when I'm out and about. I'm going to ignore him and on a good note Tuesday I got to talk to a friend of mine that I met on tango. I'm going to take his advice be thankful I'm not with him anymore.

The best is on the way

I paid all my bills for the month. I'm so proud of me. I even went online window shopping and found a cute circular barbell for my outer labia. I'm kind of sad it was discontinued.

My new kitten is growing and playing a lot. I'm so excited for that.

My crush has called me all weekend. He's supposed to be getting out this Monday. I hope he does. He says he wants to see me. I'm excited about that.

I've seen my ex old man three different days but four times all weekend long. The first time was when I was at work and near my work place. On my way to the store and out for a walk.

Karma, eyebrow trimmer, and my crush

Remember when I mentioned about the deal at work. We all thought the other party was at the other house working. We were wrong she told the person in charge she couldn't get there and cheated herself out of a job. It's funny karma bit her back.

My crush is in jail. I've been on the phone calling people for him. I hope his preacher sponsors him if not he goes back to prison for eleven years. I love him too much to see that happen. I did write him and I'm working on another note. No matter what I'll wait on him.


My eyebrow trimer went kaput I took it apart to clean it now it won't cut the hair. I used my eyebrow razor. I hate the razor but I don't have anything else.


Macramé I don't have to do it I tried to make time and that was a joke. I still haven't started it yet.

One year anniversary, new hobby, new kitten, and work headaches

The 28th was my one year anniversary of when my crush admitted his crush on me. All this week I sent him a lingerie picture. I was hoping I could get to have the day together.

Saturday night around 5pm I got a call from the jail and it was my crush. I couldn't accept the call I didn't have any money on my phone for it.

Let's see Monday at work all hell breaks loose a lesbian coworker was making a big stink over being a called a troll. She's not allowed near me and she's working at the other home. My wright up was issued on my anniversary. I was so blinded by hate I didn't see it until it was almost too late.

I tried the nair with baby oil and I liked it the smell isn't quite as bad as the aloe and lanolin one. I got just as good as results.

I went for my walk to the post office to check my po box. On my way home I found a gray kitten scared and in need of a home so I took her home.

I'm also learning macrame so far I haven't made any thing yet. I think the hobby will be a good one. I've been working on my bling. I also got flip flops and my camo capri pants I wanted. I got some cute what I thought was anklets I found out were necklaces. I mentioned in a prior blog entry. I got body jewelry for my piercings.

Summer 2016 is here

It's summer and on the first day of summer I heard from my crush . He's going to treatment twice a day seven days a week. Poor baby. I did finally get my lingerie pictures taken for him.

I baked a cake in my toaster oven and it was the most fabulous devils food cake with chocolate icing I've ever eaten. I wish I could have shared it with my crush.

I've been walking a lot. I still haven't weighed myself. I did get an app for my phone track my period and ovulation so I can avoid sex and be responsible. I'm done with my period. I've finally reached a milestone in my healing I'm healed up.

I've gotten some of the neatest body jewelry for my piercings. I'm so excited to wear them for my crush.

I used up my nair sensative with lanolin and aloe. I'm going to try nair with baby oil. I hope it smells better than the nair I finished.

I feel great

I feel great. I haven't worn full makeup just foundation. I have been walking and trying to get out. It's been so hot I haven't been able to walk a lot.

I heard from my crush via text message and when I called twice nothing. It's Father's Day weekend so maybe he's busy. Then on my walk I seen a cop not too far from his home. I'm hoping he's alright.

I did buy some good food this weekend and different varieties of nair. Apple market has a sale on them. I will do a product review on them.

Everyone knows I'm a do it yourself person. I love do it yourself projects. I'm looking for a way to change up my landing strip. I use to use Betty hair dye I'm thinking about doing that and a new shape. I love the one I got so I'm not ready to change yet.

No word from my old man and I haven't called him. It's strange his brother sister in law and my ex boyfriend from years ago came by to gossip ask how I was doing. I told my crush this I think I need to stop telling him ththat type of stuff I wonder if I'm teasing him.

I did buy myself a treat Mary Kay thinking of love perfume today. I'm going to wear it with my teddy on the occasion I see my crush. I hope he knows I love him so much.

Old school is back

My old school favorites are back. To start with Virgin Mobile is bringing back cheaper plans almost like the ones they used to have when I first joined. I switched from $55 a month to $40.00 a month. I'm loving the savings.

My old man done the same thing he did last year wanting space. I never realized how much he dominated my life. I can't believe he made me give up the very things that made me who I am. I am so done with him. I've been enjoying the things I gave up. My girly feminine clothes, makeup,and hairstyles.

I seen my crush Saturday at the taco sale. Dads car wouldn't run the battery cable ends are bad. I did get a call and text from him Sunday he wanted to meet but we never did. I think I scared him off when I said he'd have to wear a condom. He may not have a condom. I'll be mature enough for the two of us and buy some.

On a good note I finished having discharge after my procedure Wednesday. I'm on the down hill slide from there on waiting for my period.

Trying new things

This week I tried a few new things. The first was nair for my legs. They stayed smooth for a week.  I guess that's normal for nair.

I did hear from my crush. I was surprised to meet with him Thursday and fell asleep instead. On a strange note I did see him go by my house on his bike. The one time he waved nothing after that. When I text him Wednesday I sent him pictures of the lingerie I bought this winter.

I used my personal trimer to shave the fuzzy hair off my face. My face feels smoother. I noticed that my makeup stays on better.

I've been walking more I want to get rid of my stomach.

Friday I had sex with my man and he used a condom. He gripped the entire time so I'm going to get on birth control. He's not mature enough to do the right thing.

I did go back to the lord store second hand clothes store. I got a cute top. I'm going to go through my stuff and donate to good will. I bought some cute tops at dollar general.

Assorted blog entries

I have an assorted blog entries mainly thoughts. I haven't measured my hair in awhile just by looking at it I have roughly four inches of growth and I'll be at the top of my tailbone. When I reach the top of my tailbone I'm going to buy a celebration gift. I'm not sure what it will be.

Work is the same thing everyday it never gets any better just stays the same. I just keep counting down until the weekend or my days off.

I'm going to the lord store it's a free clothes store and see what they have. I need pants that fit me for the spring and winter time. I have shorts I don't have pants that fit. I'm going to replace the ones that are too big. I'm going to donate my old ones to the DAV clothes center.

As promised I went to the free clothes store and it's better than interserve. I love interserve. I'm going to go to interserve. I'm wanting a bread maker that bakes and an ice cream maker. I found my George Foreman grill there.

I went walking Saturday and it felt great. I took a different way home. I went one block east in front of the house my ex used to live in. The street my crush lives on just one block up. I found that ironic that the two men were the best lovers I ever had.

Speaking of my crush I haven't seen or heard from him yet. I'll give him until Sunday and then I can officially say I haven't heard from him all weekend. It's Sunday and no word.

I went walking Sunday and I felt so good I wore my new sunglasses and perfume. I took selfies of them. I even tried my cover girl ready set georgeus powder foundation. I'm not sure what I think of it.

I did trim my bangs and use my personal trimer on my brows. I used nair and gave myself a mini makeover. I'm getting back to myself.

Life as normal, shopping spree, my ex's brother, and the false preacher

My life seems to be normal since my medical abortion. I eat really well again and I'm taking a multivitamin for the time being. I took it easy this weekend and my bleeding slowed way down. I'm hoping I'm healing up. I had to use a bit of vitamins a and d ointment on one outer labia area due to itching. I'm irritated due to using pads.

I did one last shopping spree and bought another Victoria's Secret teddy. I put the pictures on my Google plus page. I did buy two pairs of cute sunglasses and bought two more this week. I got them at dollar general. I even bought a package of juicy fruit gum. I'm going to get two things of perfume on my next shopping spree.

My ex boyfriend from years ago brother keeps bringing up my past. Yes I admit I posed nude in some pictures years ago and that's all the bad dirt they have on me that's pretty minor. My regret is ever meeting my ex. His crack ho friend keeps coming by my house and trying to invite me to her house. I'm not interested. I never really liked the ho while I was with that ex. I'm listening to words of wisdom keep your enemies close.

The false preacher came by to tell dad he's leaving the church that snubbed him. His last day is the last day in June. Either way good riddance to him. One good thing dad told him he didn't feel comfortable at that church.

Bonus I did get a text from my crush. He told me he was busy. I bet he is with drug treatment, na meetings, and trying to get disability. He had to fix up his house after vandals stole him blind. I have his back as far as support goes.

No more as of Thursday

My meds arrived for my procedure on time. They were very user friendly and efficient. I think they arrived in a timely fashion and all the package was brown envelope. I done the first pill Thursday after my doctor appointment. I was indeed pregnant 8 weeks exactly. I waited until Friday exact 24 hours to dissolve the four other pills. By 11:30 am I passed my fetus. I had nausea cramps. In my week planning I bought tons of pads and peppermint candy for nausea. I never took a pain pill not even ibuprofen. I done my normal activities. I kind of over done it today Sunday on my 5 mile walk. Oh well I'm not having a lot of issues tired legs and abdominal pain that's really minimal. I've got my appetite back I had pressure on my stomach all the time when I was pregnant.

I heard from my crush one time since he got his phone. I'm hoping to hear from him and see him.

I done my eyebrows different I thinned the inside part and I'm not sure what I think of it. I caster oil them to grow them out.

I'm going to research birth control methods. Anyone got any suggestions.

Good news about one aspect of my life

My life has been mondane with no excitement. I did see my crush Sunday morning on his petal bike. He was heading to his narcotic anonymous. He looked really good I have to admit that. I'm disappointed he didn't come by to see me afterwards but we did have severe weather that night. I love seeing him and would love it if he'd call me.

My crush loves my hair and said it is getting so long. His hair is neck length. I love it on him and I hope he keeps it.

I'm so excited about my package arrival I'm waiting on it to arrive I have a feeling that it will be here this week.

My gripe for the week

I can't get into family planning until the middle of the month. Good grief I can't win for losing. My symptoms are going away and I'm glad of that.

Saturday night around 11:40pm I heard from my crush. He's probation through drug court and has to drop ever day. The trackers stalk him he's afraid to leave the house. He said he was going to call me Sunday but he never.

The real gripe part. I was ordering meds on line and they are cheaper than what I pay for generic. The sad part is they're in India. Why can they make our drugs cheap and our country charges a lot for? It's insane how our country charges so much for so little.

My not so great news

I never did tell anyone but my body hasn't felt right for two weeks this is the third week so I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. My man and I don't want a child so I turned to sisterzeus website and found a vitamin c abortion. I've started this Sunday after my positive pregnancy test on Friday. I had headaches, ease of my pregnancy symptoms, and back aches cramps in my abdomen. My legs hurt me too. I'm still doing this 1000mg tablet every two hours around the clock. I'm also using black cohosh too now and then. My man keeps calling me asking if it's working.

I'm sorry I'm not up to a long blog.

Not a day goes by

Not a day goes by that drama doesn't happen at work. On top of the drama I've been battling a stomach ailment. I'm not even sure what it is. I never went to the doctor and I'm just starting to feel better. I'm sure part of it is stress.

I still haven't heard from my crush or gotten a letter. I still read the ones he sent me. I gaze at his pictures on my phone.

I did light a candle and do a tarot reading and it was comforting. I got the world tarot card.

I used my sugar waxing and it worked but it burned my skin I'm guessing it was too hot. I used muslin strips to pull it off. I'm going to try it again.

On a good note my aunt Kris is helping me get my air conditioner fixed.

Toil, toil, and stares

I put a new spin on an old saying. I finally got brave enough to make my own home made sugar wax. I done this Sunday. I went out and bought the muslin strips and pop sickle sticks to stir and apply the wax with. I'm waiting on my hair to grow enough to wax.

It's the same crap at work. Rumors are running wild that I'm supposed to be talking about a staff member. I'm so beyond childish crap. I'm going to laugh them off. Jealous heifers is all it is.

I'm still having strange dreams. I had one where I get into an online fight with a woman over my crush. She said he's a teenie weenie. I'm like a what. You're mature enough to say penis. His penis is like him fine. If you have an issue it's probably because you're old and wore out.

The other dream was about a red and white Appaloosa mare giving birth and the strange thing is she's giving birth at my ex's house. I despise my ex.

I wrote my crush a note I think he's at parole and probation housing. I still haven't heard from him. I'm missing him.

Speaking of changes I'm going to get afew more things. I'm going to buy from Victoria's Secret. I'm going to trouble make myself by showing pictures of my things making sure hobag sees it. I hate hobag women.

Strange turn of advent, possible sorrow, and updates

Saturday I was walking to dollar general to extange a bag of flour for sugar. I grabbed the flour by accident so Saturday I take it back. As I'm walking to the store I had a guy in a newer black gmc pick up truck offer me a ride. He looked like a cross between me and my crush. He's my height and size with my looks. When I didn't want a ride he made small talk and said it was a nice day to walk. When he spoke he sounded like my crush.

Dreams I've been having are strange. I've been dreaming about my crush penis. Having an argument with a woman online over it. I won the argument she stopped responding.


My crush was supposed to be out March 30th he's not. He was moved to p&p(probation&parole): I found this out on a website. I'm sad I was going to see him and I made crockpot chili for him. I ended up eating alone.

I ordered my appliances and did a good job on staying on my diet. I'm using my pacer and my fitness pal apps. I do like them I had good results in the past from them.

Next week I'm making sugar wax and doing that. I need lemon juice to make it. I have every thing else. I didn't use nair after that one time. I've been shaving and being really careful. I hate shaving.

I used my eyebrow trimmer and they look amazing as always. I used my castrol oil on my brows as a grooming tool.

March 29th and my new makeup look

March 29th my crush gets out and he's wanting to pick up where we left off. I am too. I'm excited about him getting out.

I bought a cover girl makeup powder foundation ready set georgous. Its too light coverage for my skin. I went back to dollar general and got my stand by product. I bought that's cover girl clean foundation for sensitive skin plus oil control.

I've been working on cleaning up my hoarded items in my bedroom closet. I have a tote full of shampoo and conditioner. It's going to dav. I don't need all of it.

I still haven't gotten around to making my sugaring wax. I used my eyebrow trimer to do my landing strip. I also used my trimer on my brows. I finally had to buy new batteries for it. I bought dollar general batteries both times. There batteries are good.

Another week to go

Another week to go and my crush gets out. I'm excited to have him out. I loved getting to know him while he was locked up and helping him out.

On a good note I'm healed up from my chemical burn. I'm never going to use nair there again. In fact I'm looking into sugaring hair removal. I'm also hating the fact that I have to do nair weekly. I thought it was more long lasting than that.

I've been working on kitchen appliances. I'm expanding my collection of things. I'm so happy to try new things. I did with the crockpot cake that failed big time. I'm not giving up on my crockpot I will try a roast or something else.

I'm wearing my hair different its in a rope braid and looped up held by a metal clip. I'm in a don't care mood today.

I'm still doing my chore list at work. It seems to be working so far no lectures. I hate lectures. We're still training on that computer medicine book. I'm not so happy about. The three trouble making clients got busted for pot smoking this weekend. So far nothing was done to them.

Hair note my head is still itching I'm hoping its growing like crazy.

All about changes

I've blogged about my eye brows being trimmed. I love that and my next change is my Brazilian with a landing strip. I used nair I loved the easiness of the product but I ended up with a chemical burn on my outer labia. That took a week to heal up. It did with out any scaring. I used nair again this Sunday and had redness from it. This time I used petroleum jelly to keep it away from my skin folds. It worked but I'm going to invest in a new product or method for this hair removal. I was asked by my old man why I removed my hair down there. I didn't tell him the real reason why. I wanted to surprise my crush.

I worked four extra hours at my job. I swore I'd never work weekends there. I did and the girl I worked for is the one that is saying I'm lazy. When I done her weekly chore the windows were black with dirt and dead bugs. I showed my findings to a resident.

On my normal shift and this weekend I wrote a chore list with the times I do everything and it worked it's the first time I never got lectured. I'm going to keep doing it.

I decided to add my old Highschool friend and coworker to my Facebook account as a friend. I also told her to do what I did on the time sheet of her work day. Maybe we can stop the rumors and the work place has cameras. You put the time and date what you did they can look it and tell you what you are doing right. The boss himself can do that.

I'm waiting on my final Victoria's Secret to arrive. I've expanded my teddy collection. I'm not wearing them until my crush gets out. I will have seven to wear for him. I'm hoping he likes them. My crush has asked about them I told him they haven't arrived yet.

My crush got his phone restriction lifted. I have heard from him twice Saturday and once Sunday. I'm so happy to hear from him. He got one of his cards the Easter one, his letters,and pictures. He still hasn't got his St. Patrick's Day card. The post office hasn't returned it to me.

Nair woes, Victoria's Secret, and work crap

I went over my Brazilian bikini wax with a landing strip with Nair. It went good until I got some on the inside of my lip. It was red and sore in one area. I put vitamins a&d on my lip and I'm going commando in my baggy sweats. Lesson learned I'm looking for something that easy but for Brazilian wax.

I bought two more Victoria's Secret teddies. I'm going to wear them for my crush. I got my Wednesday call from him. I had to redo his pictures I'm not supposed to put anything on them. I also wrote him letters and mailed his Easter and St. Patrick's Day cards. It was the second time I heard him say he loves me. I said it back. I also wrote him a note about how my boss has been treating me.

I got my butt jumped by my boss again. I got jumped on about the stupid mop bucket again, a resident left the back door open, the dusting, then two diabetics not eating taking early morning medicines. I'm so tired of it. I'm going to look for a new job.

I bought a headset with microphone so I can talk on the phone while I'm at work. I'm going to see if it works and write a review about it.

Weekend woes

The weekend went by too fast. I got my St.Patrick's and Easter cards at Dollar General. I bought them for my crush. I also mailed two envelopes and two envelopes of pictures. When he calls I'm going to ask if I can mail the rest at one time. As you can guess I spent one day taking pictures for my crush.

I got a refund on my photo printer from Korea. I bought two more teddies and a belt. The rest I'm going to use on bills. I bought the belt to go with my dress.

I guess my new co worker isn't working out so well. She didn't do anything but sleep she's got another job. Some of the rest of us do too.

I also groomed my hair down stairs. I used my conair pink and white trimer. Then I shaved the rest. I was pleased with the results but it wasn't perfect so I'm going to redo my landing strip using nair. I'm wanting it to be smooth. My hair keeps growing back fast. I'm going to let the landing strip grow out a bit more.

I seen a long time rival and her hair isn't much longer then mine. I also trimmed my splits they were all wanting to catch on things and my hair sounded crunchy. I haven't been using my serum and my leave in conditioner. Lack of moisture can cause splits. 

I'm walking more I walked a lot Monday the route I take on Saturday. It's a five mile walk. I'm hoping to get rid of the weight I put on.

Lonely,bored, and product reviews

I've been lonely this week. I haven't received any mail or a phone call from my crush. I look forward to my call and letter. I did dream about my crush that I built a secret passage in my house and in the area I dreamt about the passage being in reality one could be built. I might have to build it in the future.

The boredom I had was being broke when the weather is nice. We had 50 to 70 degree highs. I love it I hope it stays. I did go to my po box Tuesday and Saturday. On my way home from my po box I mailed my crush his letter.

I'm going to get a refund from the eBay seller from Korea. I bought a pocket printer and I never got it. I bought another one from eBay different guy closer to my area. I hope to get this one in 2 to 7 days.

Product reviews

I have finesse hair spray. I hated it- it never held my hair in place. I will never buy it again.

Aussie sprunch spray I loved it and I'm not going to buy anymore I don't use hair spray.

Conair battery operated electric razor with trimer. I used it to trim my personal female area. I gave 20.00 for it at dollar general. I love it.

The bold and beautiful

I'm almost done with dads paper work all I need is to notarize it. I'm going to do it this week and be done with it.

We had another famous work place meeting. We heard about the new electronic medbook, more cleaning chores, and the rotated schedule. Everyone hated that we can thank Scary Carrie for that. I'm not a fan of hers anyway. I'd like to know with a forgery charge on her record how can she work here. I'm going to tell my boss about it.

I never did hear from my crush I hope he calls me. When we talked last Monday he told me he loved his cards. I'm going to send him a St. Patrick's day card and Easter card. I did write him more letters. I'm still waiting on my photo printer to arrive.

On the hair front I did wash all my hair to clarify it. I also conditioned it afterwards and today I did my normal leave ins. I'm wearing it up in a cinnamon bun held with a duck bill clip. I've been using my mtg twin a week really sparingly. I hope I can reach tailbone length by this summer.

I did buy a trial size berry blossom scented hand lotion by EOS. I love the scent and so far the results seem to be good.

The false preacher comes around

I had a mundane week. I did all my normals. The only exciting thing was when my Victoria Secret arrived and I'm excited about wearing it. I'm going to wear it for my crush. Speaking of my crush he called me Saturday. I loved hearing from my crush. I'm glad he got his birthday card and Valentine's Day card.

I've been cutting back on eating and trying to get my weight under control. I'm hoping it works. I want to look good for him and grow my hair to please my crush. I do a lot for my crush. I want to do more for him. I feel good being around him.

On to my man I told him I wanted space and he's been distant. We didn't see each other all weekend. His dads been in the hospital so maybe that's why I haven't heard from him. Sorry to say I'm not missing him or caring he's not on my mind.

Sunday I was cleaning my dads room and I was almost done. My dad was in the living room when the knock happen. It was the corrupt preacher from the local church. The same church that said slandering things about me at my work place. They insulted my dad. We never heard or seen them after the insults they slung at us. Now all of a sudden here he comes around. I call my aunt mentioned this to her. We think he's up to something. I called the social worker Monday. I also called the doctor and the mortgage company I'm now the mortgage holder. I'm on everything now. I'm beneficiary deed to the house and land. I'm hoping that's enough to keep the con artist away.

I decided to wear my hair up in my new silver duck bill clips. I styled it in a cinnamon bun. That's my go to style.

Giving second chances

I will start with Monday. Dad his labs done every Monday. The nurse is nice and we like her. I walked to work everyday this week and Monday I went to the post office no mail from my crush.

Tuesday was typical and boring. I worked some extra hours at work and I need the money for my projects.

Wednesday I went to the post office and no mail. I did work extra today.

Thursday dads nurse came. He got his manicure and home visit. After that we went to the store he drove.

Friday I placed my order for my teddy through Victoria's Secret. I'm giving them a second try. I didn't have good luck before.

Saturday I lounged around. I didn't feel good so I took it easy. I did write my crush a note and mail his cards. His birthday is the 9th and Valentine's Day coming up I wanted to beat the rush.

Sunday I went to the post office and I had a letter from my crush along with a card. I love my card and note. I came home from that walk read my note. Then I wrote him three letters that were two pages long and one that's one page long.

This week

I have had a slow week. Nothing to report I didn't do anything but pay bills, go to the store, and check the po box. No word from my crush. I do miss him so much much. I did mail him Saturday.

Dads not driving yet. He's having in home health care visit him twice a week. His blood sugar has been high. On top of this we have health and senior services visiting. That booger I don't like. She came in asked dad if he has plenty of food. She was here for five minutes or less and exclaimed it's warm in the house. It's like really humm you think.

The home repairs have been going smoothly. My neighbor whose my cousin on my mom family has helped me. His wife helped me too. She took me to the store and took dad to the doctor last week.

I got my Polaroid 2x3 printer paper. I'm waiting on the printer. Then I will send my crush pictures. I can't wait. As I promised him I go by once a week.

Home repairs

I've heard from my crush last Monday and he's doing great. I love hearing from him. I even mailed him a letter on my way to work. He did tell me he talks about me.

I had to buy a hot water tank. Mine went kaput and I'm going to fix the house up nice. I'm tired of it being a disaster because my dads a slob. I bought a hand held shower, toilet seat, and a decorative clock. I'm going to work on it. It done no good to work on the kitchen dad eats like a mess and slopped up my table cloth set. I'm going to put decorations up but I refuse to decorate the living room with nice things or the dining room so he can slop it up.

I did buy some metal duckbill hair clips to decorate. On another fun note I did buy zink 2x3 paper for my printer.

I'm going to make a home improvement list go from there. I'm going to have the house looking nice except the the areas I stated before.

I'm also going to buy a fun item from Victoria Secret I didn't have too good of luck with them before. I want some thing special for my crush.

While I was spending the night with my man I heard a woman call him asking if he wants company. The next day he denied it. I know what I heard. I keep thinking back to last summer I think I need to get rid of him.

Dads well from his pneumonia and off doing things. He's got a home health nurse the one he had last time. We liked her.

Happy days

I got brave and mailed my crush his letter. He loved it and has called me several times. My crush even introduced me to a friend. I got my first letter today from my po box and I loved it. I've written two envelopes full.

Dad was found unresponsive Wednesday by me. He's home as of Saturday and is grumpy about everything as normal. My vacation of peace has ended.

I went thinner with my brows. I used my trimmer and it's great. I still get a close clean shave with it. I use it every other day. I use castrol oil as a grooming wax.

I also bought a pocket printer for my iPhone so I can print pictures for my crush and his friend. It's coming from Korea so I'm hoping it hurries. I did create a special album for his pictures.

Not a lot has happened to me. My life gets dull in the winter time.

Products review

First product up is the vita fusion hair skin and nails chew. They worked great during the summer when I took them and they actually gave you energy. The flavor was pleasant. I'd buy them again.

Flexi 8's Lilla Rose company I joined recently. They held my hair up during the scorching heat and stressing times. My crush even liked them.

Next is my homemade version of the flexi 8. I loved making them and they look and hold just as well as the Lilla Rose ones.

Javasentric two prong forks from eBay shop. I loved them they're a little long for my hair so when I learn back I get poked. If I insert it in the side holds like a rock without being poked.

Crystalmoods.com three prong forks work great. I'm going to buy from them again. Loved them.

Two prong eBay fork brand unknown loved it.

Homemade hair sticks loved them tons.

Hair growth products I only tried two first was Softee Signature Growth oil. I used it all summer and loved it doesn't make hair oily. I have the bottle I used and another full one.

Next is Shapley mtg herbal scent. It's a horse product. I started using in the fall love it but the scent is strong.

I'm using the same shampoo and conditioner I shampoo upright as of hip length I have to or I have terrible tangles.

I swapped two of my products out my leave ins that is. I swapped out my Pantene shine serum for one n only Argan oil treatment. The other is Pantene beautiful lengths leave in for personal care salon professional leave in conditioner compare to Paul Mitchell the conditioner. It's a dollar aisle leave in. It works great. I also found out I wasn't using enough leave ins for my hair so that might be why I thought my Pantene products stopped working.

Next is hygiene products eyebrows. I used the kiss eyebrow shavers from dollar general. They worked good until I got done noticed I had razer burns. I bought cover girl silver queens collection personal trimmer and groomer. This trimer had high hopes it worked for a while then it started acting up. I gave ten dollars for it. How it acted up freezes up turn it on nothing. I had to take it apart to get it to work. I ended up losing part of it.

My ten dollar pink kiss personal trimer and eyebrow groomer. Works great. It's never failed me it cuts as good as a razer with out the burns. I don't have to shave as often either.

Eyebrow promenade I tried eyebrow wax grooming wax hated the feel of it stiff and hard like. I tried NYC brand. After googling ideas I bought castor oil worked great. It will grow your brows faster too.