Hair update, church yardsale, and the rest of the weekend

My hair update is I'm at tailbone length. I can't wear it in a high pony tail that it doesn't start to drooping down. I'm happy to made my one goal.

I attended the church yard sale. I didn't buy I'm saving up my money for my birthday gift. I'm buying body jewelry for my piercings I haven't bought any for years.

I haven't seen my crush or heard from him. I thought I saw him getting on the 7:40am bus. I was too far away to tell.

My ex Charlie talked to me Sunday asked me how I was doing. I said fine and was telling me he was working 20 hours a day. I said wow and he went on. He acted like we are friends I don't get it.

I keep seeing yellow butterflies and I'm wondering what that means. I'm going to look it up on the internet.

I got a letter from my booty call partner this Saturday. He's been in federal prison for 3-1/2 years. He gets out in 2-1/2 years. I'm going to write him back.

My crush and his drama

My crush and his drama. Tuesday he got arrested and he called me from the jail house. It was Monday I seen him on his bike. He got put in for using drugs and going to the wrong meeting.

Friday I got a call from a coworker that's a trouble maker. I'm not going into detail about that.

I bought all the new clothes I want donated the rest to dav. I'm happy about giving back. I've donated before and I used to shop there. I love it.

I have to call in about jury duty tonight. I hope I don't get it.

I was looking at body jewelry and seen a butterfly nose ring I'm not sure if I want the blue or pink one. I like the blue one to match my crush eyes and maybe it explains the toddler in my dreams. I told my crush about the toddler in my dreams. He said it was due to pregnancy. I had my period already.

I have been walking a lot more

I've been walking a lot more and I'm almost at my goal weight but not my goal size. My hips, thighs, and butt is bigger. I can only think of one cause and that's my abortion pregnancy causing the changes.

I haven't seen my ex around and I'm glad for that. I'm moving on even though it hurts.

I seen my crush from afar he was on his bike. He waved but I couldn't tell who it was. I can't see that far. I am still carrying his candy in my purse. I want to give it to him in person but his neighborhood scares me. I might have to just get brave and do it.

I found out today my ex asked my coworker about me months ago. This makes sense as to why he has been spying. He's doing it as away to get me to go back to him. I'm not doing it. I never realized how much I changed until I got away from him. He was a tyrant.

On a mature note I seen two people I hate in a public place and ignored them.

I keep seeing my crush

I keep seeing my crush after talking to him on his way to classes Saturday. I gave him two pieces of candy root beer barrels to be exact. I did go out Sunday and bought him some hot lips candy. I'm carrying the bag around with me so I can give it to him.

I seen my crush on Sunday as I was going for a walk and again this morning. I was too far away for him to see me. I'm getting closer to giving him the candy. I think he will like the hint I'm leaving for him.

I haven't seen my ex and I'm not looking for him anymore. I'm moving on and I'm going to work on my wardrobe. I want to look good for my crush.

I seen an unsavory female from my past at the dollar general. I'm glad again I did my shopping with out her noticing me. It's like we were never friends she was friends with my ex. She thinks she can buddy up to me. My crush is friends with her and my ex still I'm not friends with her we have mutual friends. There's a difference.

I heard back from dollar general I filled out the rest of the questions they needed. When I went there Sunday they were swamped it was like a mad house.

I'm feeling pms like symptoms I'm to start tomorrow. I keep having a dream about an unknown toddler boy wearing overalls and white t shirt. He's all alone with me. He's slapping a ball like he's trying to dribble it but the ball isn't rubber it's got soft cloth cover and packing. He slaps it three times the fourth time he falls down sitting playing with it. He's slobbering and I hold out my arms and try to pick him up. This is when my alarm clock went off. Next night I do as before but I ask him what his name is he just smiled won't talk to me.

This week was interesting

This week was interesting. I didn't see my ex going by my work place. I'm glad for that.

I'm getting back into my hair care routine. I'm using my Pantene serum and leave in conditioner. I did use up another hair growth oil gro works it's in a green bottle and I hated it made my hair greasy.

Sunday I did see my ex outside a restaurant as I was walking to the post office. He asked me what the hell I was doing. I looked inside the window thinking they were closed but they weren't. I told him I was going to the post office I was on the way.

I did use my pocket change to get some leggings pants to wear with my new shirts. I also went to interserve the free clothes store and got a pair of black silk pants. I got new tennis shoes. I bought another bracelet, three toe rings with ankle bracelets, and my cover girl powder. I'm still getting rid of my unwanted clothes.